Some nice memories one can find in a stack of drafts.
Sweet summer’2014
Despite being full time unemployed, I am part time busy. Volunteering, helping out my friends with their business and trying to stay a bit distant from all that jazz with career track.
Like a guy, who are deadly afraid of a new connection after breakup of long term realationship. Me too. It was too good to be true.
I don’t want to be engaged again too early. Professionally.
I have professional flings, short-term, long distance relationships, ONS, FwB.
I didn’t get any proposal yet. Still waiting for an irresistible one from Mr. Right CEO.
“We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely. All art is quite useless.”
Oscar Wilde , The Picture of Dorian Gray
“Have you ever felt the longing for someone you could admire? For something, not to look down at, but up to?”
― Ayn Rand
Future is a promise made by present. Spring is a promise too. Rhubarb is an example 🙂
“I have realized that the past and future are real illusions, that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is.”
― Alan W. Watts
Sometimes we do write letters supposed to change something. Or everything. Sometimes we write letters with the silent hope they will change nothing.
Sometimes I feel like I am too honest to be on the safe side. I say things in advance instead of keeping my mouth shut. Sometimes I force people to do their own decisions based on my honesty, despite I am afraid of these decisions.
My dear, I was thinking a lot about you tonight, About me being provocative and you being vulnerable. About me being emotional and you trying to be rational. Me – too open and you – drawing your own conclusions. About present, past, words and their meanings, fear of changes and our preferred type of sexual relationships. About us, both reading each other as a book, both missing each other and unread pages. About us being in the relationship, that has no definition or title yet. You are the person I like to be with: talk, be silent, correspond, kiss, smile, play word games. It’s great to be with you, just to be.
I know , being f***ing honest with each other is far more great than just f***ing…. But if I had kept my mouth shut I would have been much happier today …
I was shocked and really happy that this video was created. Happy not about the problem, but about the way we want to deal with the problem. It made me cry.